My Journey into Thirty

Shared by: SU Team

Imagine waking up and realizing you are five days from thirty. I am not sure why but the feeling of how did I get here so fast immediately came over me. As I began to let things get to me, I started to scramble. I started looking around to see what last minute thing I could get into and who I could invite. You know because turning thirty is such a big deal, right? It has to be celebrated, right? When all things fell through, I decided to do nothing extravagant but instead spend my thirtieth birthday at home with my family. Truth is, this was ideal for me ....

B-Day

I woke up, waiting to feel different, as all my friends who turned 30 before told me it was the day of your body suddenly changes. I spend the whole day wondering what I would feel when would it shift ... it wasn’t until 365 days around the sun, the transformation would be outer body, and not physical as I assumed.

Seasons of Healing

A few days into thirty, I was utterly surrounded with my thoughts. It was really a major milestone for me as a woman. I couldn’t place it and I was yearning to figure out what was supposed to be so big in my life. I realized when I was in my teenage years, I set numerous goals for me and truth is I hadn’t achieved any of the ones I set. It had a major impact on my sense of accomplishment. I began having more talks with God, asking more deeper and intimate questions of myself and ultimately reflecting. I realized that I wasn’t satisfied with my 20s, not because they weren’t successful - after all success is in the eyes of the beholder. My 20s I felt like I left too much on the table, I vowed to myself to leave nothing on the table, bear it all, and be TRUE to SELF. I broke my 30th year into four seasons. Each season I challenged my spirit, mind and heart to grow in four areas of my life: Faith, Friendships, Forgiveness, and Freedom.

Faithfulness

When you are faithful, you are obedient to the word of God. All my life, I have actively heard the voice of God. I remember the first time was when my mom was pregnant and I told her what the sex of the baby would be. Moments like that happened regularly but somewhere down the line I stopped listening. I didn’t allow myself to sit in silence. This first season was about learning to be faithful, learning to be obedient. Learning to be still and accepting silence to grow my relationship with the Lord. This was key, not only for self but also for the things that would come next.

Friendships

This next season was about seeing who was in my circle. And what did I want my circle to look like. To be honest my 30s is when I realized I was not a good friend. I often did not check on my friends - even if it was a quick text or call to say hi. That bothered me. Mostly because I loved my friends and I was not sure they knew that. I vowed to do better. Really reflect on how friend